Category Archives: Reality
torrential rainfall and the disputed kingdom Protista
It’s been raining torrentially all day- this morning we took the dogs to kelly point park, the superfund site where the metallic Columbia meets the sewage-filled Willamette, and big cold drops began to pelt us as soon as we stepped … Continue reading
Filed under Travel, The Apocalypse, Reality, Privilege, solitude, joy, nostalgia, love, everything, the sky, gratitude, the wind, the night, the accumulation of passing time, inspiration, heaven and earth inside of us, the land beyond ambition, busy, determined, opportunity, frustrated, important, rain, recklessness, freedom, impulsiveness, obsession, pain, writing about writing, yes, dreams, dystopia, little house in the driveway
The brief wondrous life of Sonny Riccobono
It was march, and Seamus and I had just started dating. The rain clouds, while still black-grey and flinging down torrents of water, were broken, now, in moments, by patches of glorious, syrupy yellow light- the steamy northwest sun, emerging … Continue reading
Where darkness lives
I woke up this morning thinking about my mother. I invoked her, yesterday, by talking about her, and when I woke up this morning she was there, in the room. Her spirit, her energy. My mother exists. It’s hard to … Continue reading
Filed under Alaska, beauty, important, My Schizophrenic Mother, pain, Privilege, Reality, The Apocalypse
light bulbs, chihuahuas, and writing about myself
My new apartment is two square rooms, a yellow kitchen counter, and the hum of the fridge. It is the click-click of the baseboard heaters and the cold blue light of the stark-white walls. I have not hung artwork yet. … Continue reading
Filed under determined, fail, focus is a form of love, freedom, frustrated, Insomnia, inspiration, love, Mental health, opportunity, Privilege, rain, Reality, sads, solitude, Sometimes shit sucks, the cold, the night
Look! I wrote something!
My chemistry homework makes an appearance, as does North Dakota. —————————– S A D ——— It has gotten cold here, sometimes sometimes it is not cold, but the air is filled with water like someone is misting us like we … Continue reading
Filed under a tree!, beauty, determined, freedom, inspiration, love, nostalgia, obsession, opportunity, Privilege, rain, Reality, recklessness, sads, solitude, the cold, the night, the sky, the sun
I’m back
It is so strange to be back in the city. It is raining, I cannot ride my bicycle. The air is cold and grey- there is fruit out there, ripening, figs and blackberries, but I do not know how to … Continue reading
Filed under opportunity, Portland, Privilege, rain, Reality, the accumulation of passing time, the wind
I MISS WRITING
WHY DO I WORK SO MUCH AND FOR SO LITTLE CAPITALISM CAPITALISM CAPITALISM
Filed under Reality
i never know what to title things anymore
It is so hard to say goodbye to you, these days, even for a few hours- I do the breakfast dishes and then fall into bed and imagine your arms around me, my legs curled against yours- I want to … Continue reading
Filed under everything, home, inspiration, love, Reality, the sea
d e e p t h o u g h t s i n b e a u t i f u l i d a h o
Rural Idaho is big, rural idaho is lonely. Being in rural idaho with one other person does not keep the loneliness away- it holds it back, for hours at a time, the way a campfire holds back the dark- but … Continue reading
Filed under beauty, determined, focus is a form of love, gratitude, inspiration, joy, love, opportunity, Pictures, Reality, solitude, the sky
